38 Weeks

Wow...talk about being in the home stretch! Some of my "pregnant" friends have had their babies and it's hard to grasp the reality that it will be my turn very soon. I thought for sure something was about to happen on Sunday. I just felt very off all day and by mid afternoon I started to have a lot of pain in my upper abdomen and lower back but by Monday morning I was back to normal.

I think over the past week Baby V has "dropped". Breathing is not as difficult and my heartburn has greatly subsided (YAY!). I have been having daily cramping, lower back pain, and pressure in my hips and tailbone. The midwife said it's just my body warming up. At this weeks appointment I was at 37 cm and up 1.5 lbs. Everything still looking good and we agreed to let this baby come on his own and induction will only be brought up if I hit 42 weeks...fingers crossed we don't even come close to 42 weeks!

Oh and I need to make a special note regarding my "pregnancy brain". My mind is so foggy these day that it seems I can only focus on what is sitting in front of me and nothing else. I find myself watching a show on TV and by the time a commercial is over with I cannot remember what was going on only minutes before....actually kind of scary to be so absentminded!

I'm not going to lie, I have reached the point where I am starting to have a lot of self doubt. Some people just shouldn't have kids and sometimes I can't help but wonder if I am one of those people...a little late for that now I realize. But holy crap, I am going to be in charge of this new life, how do I make sure I do as little damage as possible?! Or should we just open a saving account now for his future therapy bills....? I'm really trying to not over think and freak myself out but when my black hole of a mind actually focuses on my impending motherhood I can't help but be a little terrified. I am ready for pregnancy to be over with but I'm not sure I'm ready for what comes next....



Your baby has really plumped up. He weighs about 6.8 pounds and he's over 19 1/2 inches long (like a leek). He has a firm grasp, which you'll soon be able to test when you hold his hand for the first time! His organs have matured and are ready for life outside the womb.

Wondering what color your baby's eyes will be? You may not be able to tell right away. If he's born with brown eyes, they'll likely stay brown. If he's born with steel gray or dark blue eyes, they may stay gray or blue or turn green, hazel, or brown by the time he's 9 months old. That's because a child's irises (the colored part of the eye) may gain more pigment in the months after he's born, but they usually won't get "lighter" or more blue. (Green, hazel, and brown eyes have more pigment than gray or blue eyes.)

Lindsey